Okay, so after yesterday's meeting with the doctors, it's pretty much official - there's really no chance at all. Anything they could do treatment-wise at this point would be futile, and likely painful on top of that.
There's an odd, detatched part of me that wonders how a doctor trains to deliver a death sentence. That same part was also interested to watch everyone else's reactions, instead of thinking of my own - it seemed preferable.
My moratorium on making Big Decisions(tm) is over now, too. I've spent half my day on the phone, getting some of those taken care of.
Oh, and I might not be around much if at all for a while - no need for panic, there's just a lot to do, none of it pleasant. Hope everyone's doing alright, and I'll pop on LJ or email when I can.
Love and Cuddles,